I was talking to someone and she was telling me a story about one of her friends and the friend's boyfriend and it triggered thoughts about a certain someone. I mean, I have thought about her a lot in the however long it's been, but it hasn't been this bad in months (shit, I just looked at a calendar, it's been five months and 28 days since I felt this bad, and damn that was an ugly day). It just seems so fucked up how we could have had such a strong bond that was never supposed to be broken (at least that is what she told me even after we weren't dating anymore) and that it could turn into nothing. I have so much to say, but I need to stop. I just hate the feeling like I'll never be in love with anyone else again. If she can do it then I should be able to do it also (too bad there is no one for me to even try to do it with, or even... anyone who could comfort me for the time being). I've just got to stop making mistakes. Go me.
Don't stop believin' hold on to that feeling.